A Splash of Color

What are you doing today for Him, tomorrow for Him, this week for Him, this month for Him, even this YEAR for Him, or your whole LIFE for Him?

God despises sin. As I’m reading in “Crazy Love”, which is an excellent book by the way, He doesn’t want us to be thinking “How far can I go before this action is sin?” He wants us to be begging Him to keep our bodies pure through His strength, and NOT through our own weakness and sinful nature.

Christians do not fit your idea of Christian. That I guarantee. They can be anyone. The only instance I would retract my prior statement would be if your idea of Christian is powerful, strong person doing crazy things that non-believers don’t understand. God WANTS us to stand out! He wants Christians to rise as a family amongst sinners, and act as the royalty we are. This doesn’t mean abandon humbleness; quite the opposite — the only way to be great is to accept that your greatness is not yours. It is God’s, and in the same way that He gives it, He has the right to take it from you and the right to use it for His purposes.  Greatness is not a term ever used to describe a human. Greatness is when life on Earth becomes unimportant as anything but a place that needs the love God gives you, when non-believers become brothers and sisters who do not know their Father, and God becomes your only source of strength. ONLY.

If your strength is all God’s and none yours, you don’t care about your body or appearance. You care less for your friends than you do for your God; you recognize them as people who need to be loved and cared for in radical ways. This is Gods will: love Him in radical ways and care for others the same.

This means nothing — yes, nothing! — of yours is yours. It means you let blessings flow through you to friends, family, and strangers.

Will continue in this vein later. Love you all…

–kayte.anne.

Yesterday was Saturday. I have a feeling I might need to be taking Saturday’s off periodically, they’re just too fun to blog on. (: I did homework and chilled with Michaela, quote of the evening: “He’s foreign exchange?” “Ya, from Germany.” “Really?!?! I thought he was just chillin!”

Seriously, there is something wrong with me.

Besides that, we consumed mini pizzas like a plague of locusts and stayed up oddly late texting random boys and, in my case, my boyfriend — hereby dubbed “Pants Boy”. Love you! <3

Anyways. Back on topic.

I have been working on goals in my head with God, and finally worked something out. So, hereafter, this is the sheet I’ll be working on daily, or multi-daily, dependant on how “updated” you guys need to be on my life.

1. Today’s goals.

• Deep clean my wreck of a bedroom so I can remain sane in it this following week.
• Go on the first photowalk of this year. Decide where to go, too. (:
• Finish math homework, BLAH!
• Take a 365 portrait.
• LAUNDRY. 0_0
• Meet my first 100 stranger project stranger…0_0
• Study for my permit test!

2. February goals.

• Bring my grades up to A’s and maybe like, 1 B. (:
• Get my permit.
• Get in a system for giving money to God.
• Have an AMAZING Valentine’s day. <33
• Write a couple really important poems.
• Get in a system of using the Sad Light and praying a lot.
• Weed my clothes down to a 12 days worth and give the rest somewhere, or sell them to give the money to poor.

3. End of School Goals.

• Have all A’s, or at least mostly A’s, and no C’s or lower!
• Have a pretty epic photo portfolio.
• Honestly be able to say I love God with all my heart, soul, and spirit.

4. Start of 11th Grade Goals.

• Have volunteered at the hospital.
• Have attended some sort of summer camp, hopefully in Fairbanks nursing program!
• Be enrolled in the high school full time with the stability with God and myself to succeed!

5. 2010 Goals!

• Be nearly done with 365 and done with my other 3 projects.
• Have accomplished at least 2 writing-related achievements.
• Be still with Jonny. Have it work out <33

6. High school goals.

• Better grades. Mostly A’s.
• Classes related to nursing.
• Get into UAF!

7. Life Goals.

• Love God, love life, love my husband, be at peace.

<33 I’ll be letting you guys know how this works for me.

–Kayte.Anne.

Life is a day at a time, life is a fragile game. Life is a year-here, year-there, life is living FOR God. My life will be a beautiful servant-hood, and I, personally, as a 15-year-old girl, am totally and utterly STOKED for the future.

I’d like to share something. Lately, I’ve been having visions. They started a few weeks ago, when I awoke from a dream, sat up in bed, and thought, “I want to be a nurse!” I realized, in that moment, my desire to be “taken care” of would so easily translate into taking care of others. I want to give the needy what I myself need, and that will fill both of us with a sense of deep joy. I strongly believe that God needs me helping people, praying for them, loving them, and caring for their needs, so I am starting to make distinct plans for that future. Next summer, instead of / in addition to attending a writing camp, I would like to apply to a medical-type camp in Fairbanks. I always figured, as did everyone around me, my future would be in art, so this is very shocking!

The second vision I had I had at school, in the middle of an assembly. Suddenly, I realized that I am most likely supposed to go to an UAA school. *dies a little inside* Yes, it’s dark here, it’s cold here, it’s really not a great place for my body to be. And not only am I supposed to go to an Alaska college — I’m supposed to go to UAF. Where my parents met. Where it is cold all the time, and dark, and just plain…wretched. But then I realized that God will bring me through that. He wouldn’t begin leading me there if He had no reason, and I know there are people I am supposed to meet and events I am supposed to witness, and eventually that it will be the best for me. So, instead of applying mainly to New York colleges like Skidmore, I’m going to be aiming for University of Alaska Fairbanks, and with God’s go-ahead, going there for school in the fall of 2012. (assuming the world doesn’t end…har. har. har.)

The third vision was the oddest, clearest yet. It was in Youth Group last Wednesday, and I was having a hard time getting “into” worship. I felt I was just singing the words and not feeling them or knowing them, so I begged God to help me understand Him and myself a little more, to help let me give myself up to Him. As I finished my prayer, my favorite song came on. I really started getting into it, singing, threw my heads up and my head back, shut my eyes, and saw a nine year old boy, running towards me. He was on a green lawn, with a white single-level house in the background. The oddest part was that he looked just like my boyfriend, just younger and thinner. I knew it was from God and had a huge smile on my face the entire rest of worship, one that I couldn’t suppress even though I hadn’t been thinking of Jonny nor had I EVER even CONSIDERED having his children. At first I thought it was him when he was younger, but then I realized that it was our child, and our house, and our life, our destiny. Pretty creepy / amazing. (:

Anyways. This year, I want to do amazing things with God’s power. I want to grow in Him and for Him and towards Him. I am realizing what is important and what is unimportant. Thus, I have several goals that I will blog about daily as I begin to achieve, and I hope I inspire you to do the same!

I will list them in my next post, once I entirely know what they are xP

They are designed to be daily things, something measurable.

Until then–

Kayte.Anne(:

Kayte!

A bit about me shall we?

I’m generally a non generalization. I like to live by rules that I set and ignore those I disagree with. I do not fit in your stereotype; I’m a princess who likes to be a loner and a hopeful who will someday be discovered.

I’m an artist, poet and photographer, I work with dolls. They’re almost as creepy as my layout ^^
Their names are Samantha and Karin and they go a lot of places with me. School, friends houses, et cetera.

I enjoy horror movies with good acting, the style of scene kids as well as the attitude, posting about my life on the Internet, big cities, and eating oatmeal and apple cider for breakfast. I’m a HUGE Jesus freak. He has healed me and brought me through so many hard times, has taught me lessons I needed to learn and loved me when no one else would. He’s like the perfect boyfriend; no boy I’ve ever dated, nor ever will, would die so that I would be forgiven.

I am really a quiet girl.

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But once you get to know me I’m very pleasant(:

I’ve been told I am a fantastic listener and mysteriously sexy. I don’t really care what you think of me and never will, though I cannot say I never have. I consist mainly of artistic terminology and prayer.

I am entirely a morning person, never have truly been into late nights — though I enjoy them when I’m walking around at midnight with my best friends. <33

Like we do that though…me and the closest friends I will probably ever have (Emmie, Katie, Dana, Tori, and Nomi) just throw two-person techno raves and watch movies like “Orphan” and “The Unrest.” xP

I am truly a creative soul, and I am deeply in love with my Saviour, as well as my Father in Heaven.

I believe any good in me comes from them, and any bad in me comes from Satan. I am a very faith-based teenager.

I feel like without the ability to stand out I wouldn’t have made it this far; now I simply need to take that exhilarating chance.

I CAN do awesome things for MY God and I totally WILL!

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*ahem*

I really do love people, though I don’t always act it. I try not to be entirely frightening, but that doesn’t always work. ^^ I’m not scene, punk, emo, or goth, though I enjoy the culture it is not part of me anymore. (:

I love dress up, friendship, deep conversations, and coloring outside the lines!

Barbie coloring books are bomb! …what?

I am growing into a strong woman, one who will spread God’s will throughout the world!

I believe in different friends for different types of fun, and then best friends who I love very dearly!

I live like I mean it, which I do. I’m not half-hearted and definitely not timid!

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But sometimes I say those things just to make myself feel stronger.

Inside, I’m as weak as you are. But God can and will make me strong and powerful in HIS righteous name!

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